Depression, Funerals, Abandonment, Lonely.. all in a day.

Death
The last right of life,
The spreading and growth of wings,
The ending of trials and suffering,
The beginning of a passage through clouds,
In the end the choice to fight or flight,
A choice so many forget, and leave for others.
A broken family united and gathered,
for a moment of Prayer...
11 members all so different, and
a biker named Doc, who's the preacher.
A prayer for strength, and courage,
A prayer to lift up to the heaven.
A Lawyer, A biker rally, and Flights,
A will, Machines, and a decision to pull the plug.
Death
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I feel like i shouldn't even be here. I mean my dad doesn't even look at me, unless he needs something like he wanted us all three of us to pick some songs together and they were all cuddly and together and just telling me to click this click that and then when it came to me they stayed a whole 2 minutes and she was on the phone they didn't talk to me they talked at me and then decided that they had found it all. and that was that. but then i wanted to play them my songs that i liked butbthe one song that i started to play he said "oh this is that darn song that the bar maid is always hmming. and we always laugh" my god it's called Don't laugh at me by Mark Wills. and then they stood up and said well that was helpful.... i shouldnt be around or here i just wanna cry. and i hate crying and tomorrow is my uncles funeral and i miss him so much already and its only been a week, but i have only done this so many times that i just feel numb and that is wrong. i mean really really not right right? i dont know
i know what song i should have played cause it fits so so so well to me right now "how do you get that lonely" blain larsen
im so just done with it all. i feel so abandoned. and ALONE IM ALWAYS ALONE
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Don't laugh at me by Mark Wills

I'm a little boy with glasses
The one they call the geek
A little girl who never smiles
'Cause I've got braces on my teeth
And I know how it feels
To cry myself to sleep

I'm that kid on every playground
Who's always chosen last
A single teenage mother
Tryin' to overcome my past
You don't have to be my friend
But is it too much to ask

Don't laugh at me
Don't call me names
Don't get your pleasure from my pain
In God's eyes we're all the same
Someday we'll all have perfect wings
Don't laugh at me

I'm the cripple on the corner
You've passed me on the street
And I wouldn't be out here beggin'
If I had enough to eat
And don't think I don't notice
That our eyes never meet

I lost my wife and little boy when
Someone cross that yellow line
The day we laid them in the ground
Is the day I lost my mind
And right now I'm down to holdin'
This little cardboard sign...so

Don't laugh at me
Don't call me names
Don't get your pleasure from my pain
In God's eyes we're all the same
Someday we'll all have perfect wings
Don't laugh at me

I'm fat, I'm thin, I'm short, I'm tall
I'm deaf, I'm blind, hey, aren't we all

Don't laugh at me
Don't call me names
Don't get your pleasure from my pain
In God's eyes we're all the same
Someday we'll all have perfect wings
Don't laugh at me